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This moment

July 8, 2012

In just one short moment, your life can change forever. Last week I had a car accident. Luckily, I survived. Thankfully, noone else was in the car with me and there were no other cars or people involved. I was hurt but not badly. It could have been worse. The car was not so lucky and “Rosie” was sent off to car heaven.

Recently I read that in a car accident, you are pulled instantly into the present moment: out of your musings on the past and dreamings of the future into a true present. And that is exactly what I experienced. “Did you have lots of memories flashing past you?”, a friend asked me yesterday. No. There was only the present moment. I did not think of my children. I did not think of my husband. I was there, right there in what was happening as my car planed on a wet and oily road to the wrong side of the road and back again and finally smashed into a rock wall. I was thrown around like a rag doll, badly bruised and it feels like all the muscles in my upper body and neck have been pulled and stretched. Now I know why I’ve never liked roller coaster rides and scary theme park rides – they are a toned down version of my accident. Not my idea of fun.

So why did it happen? I may not ever know and the relief of this experience has been letting go of trying to analyse and see a message in it. It’s about sitting in what is, experiencing what is. Right here. Right now.

Today, my thoughts were constantly on the tragedy and loss that Lauren and her family of the blog “Sparkling Adventures” have experienced. In one moment, her life has changed forever. My heart aches for you Lauren. I only discovered your blog a few weeks ago and it was such a shock when I heard yesterday, via an unschooling friend, of the loss of your baby son and the events surrounding his death.

In light of this, my car accident is so insignificant. A grain of sand, less even. But it could have been such a different outcome. Today, Kayo climbed up on a wall on the 2nd floor of a high school balcony. Kosuke noticed her and yanked her down in fear and shock. One slip and she would have fallen to her death or at least severe injury onto the ashphalt below. One moment, a different outcome.

So, the day closes with a feeling of gratitude. Gratitude for the blessings I have experienced in my life and for the protection and luck thus far. Life is tenuous and it could change in a moment so all we can do is hold on for the ride and treasure this moment. Right here. Right now.

5 Comments leave one →
  1. July 8, 2012 9:23 pm

    What to say, Filippa. I’m awed by the power of your writing here and then to travel to Sparkling adventures and to read more about an even more unspeakable loss, my heart in my mouth.

    • July 11, 2012 9:36 pm

      Thank you Elisabeth. We sit immersed in our own lives and experiences and then we touch another’s and step out for a while and see things differently. A parallel life to ours going through an entirely different experience. Separate, yet connected.

  2. Max permalink
    July 9, 2012 1:36 am

    Life IS tenous, that’s for sure. Nicely described, exactly how i felt during my (minor) car accident.

  3. Delcie permalink
    July 24, 2012 9:58 am

    Just found you through a comment you left on ‘SPARKLING ADVENTURES’. we would love to visit your eco village when we come to Qld in October. We are involved in a group setting up an eco villahe/ co- housing project in the blue mountains.

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